The Toll Sexual Abuse Has…

    So yesterday, I was talking about the General Assembly and Church of the Firstborn and I got to thinking some more and realized that I didn’t say everything that I needed to say about that church. 

First of all I want to say how my parents continue to call the above stated ‘their church.’ But, they are complete hypocrites! They both go to the doctor, my mom cuts her hair, and they curse! I don’t believe that women cutting their hair is wrong nor do I believe that going to the doctor is wrong. But for both of my parents to try and tell me that they believe a certain way and I can see that they don’t abide by the churches ‘rules’ is just stupid. 

       So take a few steps back… On November 8th, 2015 I accepted the Lord into my life and decided to follow Him. I decided to have a ‘Believer’s Baptism’ on November 15th, 2015. I text my mom mid-week so that her and my dad would know and could make plans to come. I feel like most peoples parents would be glad that their child was accepting God into their lives. Well, my parents call the day of my baptism and asked me, “Do you feel like what your doing is right?” REALLY?!?! Do you believe in God or not?! That is how my moms statement made me feel. By the end of our conversation, I could tell that they were not going to be attending my baptism. 

      The day after Thanksgiving I talked with my mom about this. I told her that it made me sad and hurt that they didn’t attend my baptism; as this was a joyous time in my life. She told me that they didn’t attend because the church that I was being baptized “into” did not believe the way that their church believes.

         I feel like my parent’s are such idiots; If you are not abiding by said ‘rules’ of the General Assembly and Church of the Firstborn, then you obviously don’t believe that way. But, they are so oblivious to the fact that there might be another church out there that resembles their beliefs more closely. My dad always knocks the way Baptists believe, and I want to tell him, “You have no clue!! You have never been to any other church than the one you go to currently, which is one big twisted problem after another!” You can’t knock something until you try it. I just wish that I could tell my parents’ how I really feel in any situation.

          That’s what I’m working towards and can’t wait until I’m there! It will be a great feeling to be able to tell people how I truly feel and not have to keep anything bottled up. I’ve kept my brothers’ secret for at least 10 years and I know first hand how destructive that can be and it is not a good feeling at all….  



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