I know it has been quite awhile since I have blogged. Today in pharmacy school we had a speaker. He wasn’t someone I thought would, in any way, have an impression upon me. This man speaking in my class today reinforced why I am such an advocate for counseling.
He was a pharmacist, and when he first starting talking, it was amazing to me all the similarities we had in common. Normal childhood, raised on a farm blah blah blah… Long story short, he got addicted to injectable opiates and ended up in counseling. While he was talking about the nature of his counseling and things that he learned I instantly went back to when I was in counseling. Even though the two reasons we were in counseling had no correlation whatsoever. It was like I was back in counseling hearing all of the things again that I heard so long ago. Really its bittersweet, reflecting on a time in my life that was so terrible and so heavy on my shoulders and then thinking about the counseling that I went through to get to where I am today. I was the perfectionist that he talked about being, I was the person that tried to please everybody, I was the person that never took time for myself. But because of counseling I am proud to say that that is not me anymore. I don’t care what other people think of me. People don’t know my situation or what I’ve been through. I am who I am and I’m proud of where I’ve been and what I’ve struggled to overcome in life because it all makes me who I am today. A strong minded, strong willed and determined woman. And while I still may struggle, I have the tools that I need to get through any situation. I just have to continue to tell myself that.
It’s all in your perception of things. You do matter and you do make a difference. You can’t change the world but don’t let that get you down. There’s a life to live, make it the best one you’ll ever live.